..This is Me..

2009-06-12T21:01:00.003+08:00

i've decided to stop blogging at dis space.

reason being....i got sick.

hur.

dun get the wrong idea.

im not gonna stop blogging.

i'd just switched to LJ.

which i find much more meaningful than blogspot after like so long.

hehh.

so here's my new URL, http://neneklu.livejournal.com

dun expect me to air my dirty laundries down there.

but even if i do, i will lock my entries, thus only my friends could view them.

so, be my friend there. go LJ! =)

gdbye blogspot. it was nice blogging on u for 4 years.

time to move on..

2009-06-04T20:48:00.002+08:00

No mid-year bonus for civil servants this yearBy S.Ramesh, Channel NewsAsia Posted: 04 June 2009 1729 hrs

SINGAPORE: Over 60,000 civil servants in Singapore will not be getting any mid-year annual variable component this year. The Public Service Division said this is due to the uncertain economic outlook.

For full report, click here

i'm like fucking depressed, can??

2009-06-01T21:07:00.002+08:00

karaoked again.

sukeeeeeeeeeee sangat.

n party world increased their price already.

students (yeah, i still used my poly ezlink card! hee!) are charged $16.20 including gst for 4 hours of fun.

come to tink of it, still ok la.

heard cash studio is more expensive.

ok wateva.

since im done watching gossip girl, ive started on Dirty Sexy Money now.

hur.

oh oh, n i passed my exams wif flying colours! yay!

i swear i've never seen dat kind of GPA in poly. hehe.

ok bye!

2009-05-30T19:54:00.002+08:00

guess wat?

i cant even post anythin on my tagboard!

it stated there dat i've been banned!

hahaha!

so weird!

the owner banned herself from posting on her own tagboard.

hah.

i realised i still havent post the entry on Medan.

im just too lazy arh.

sorry.

soon soon.

2009-05-24T22:20:00.002+08:00

all of us heard dis song on the ferry, on the way to Samosir Island,

n i swear, ALL of us are now addicted to this song!

seriously,

the lyrics are everywhere on facebook!

hah!

it was such a fun trip, downside was itz just too tiring.

i'll do a proper entry on the trip soon.

n i'll post some pics soon too, i hope.

itz still not uploaded on facebook yet. hah.

i'm just too lazy, n busy catching up on my sleep mainly.

hehh.

2009-05-16T20:36:00.002+08:00

this entry will be very very short cos im still not done wif my packings.

i'll be gone from tmr til the 21st!

i hope im gonna have the best time of my life cos i so need dat at this moment in time.

so yeah, hv a great day people!

dun miss me!

2009-05-15T21:43:00.002+08:00

i still havent start packing my bag.

dats like the part i dread the most when im goin for a holiday.

i dun even noe which bag should i bring.

im thinking backpacks.

die die, i need to get my ass started on packing latest by tmr nite!

need to reach airport at 5am on sunday.

ok, in my case, make dat 5.30. i just cant be on time. hehh.

2 more days! =)

2009-05-10T11:53:00.002+08:00

we went out for a mini Mother's Day dinner at Bali Thai last night.

food was not bad,

but the highlight of the dinner was THE CAKE which alfian bought.

yep, no typing error there, it was bought by my baby brother, alfian.

hah, now dat he got abit of cash from his atachments, he decided to spend abit on a cake, which i must admit, was really really good.

secret recipe never fails me larh, or any of us for that matter.

obviously i didnt chipped in any cos Mother's Day falls a tad too early from the day i turned abit rich.

hee.

so aniwaes, mas selamat was caught while he was sleeping?? n he's been hiding in JB??

aisey brother, da cool2 mcm prison break lepas from jail, beh sembunyik kat JB??

kental seh.

seems like all the jokes were spot on eh?

"Selamat datang ke Malaysia."

n true enough, he's caught there, sleeping somemore!

hah!

2009-05-08T13:38:00.002+08:00

looked through my itinerary for the Medan trip which was emailed by our leader, Mr Nur

n realised dat all we're gonna be doing is sight-seeing n shopping!

hahaha!

n i seriously thought dat itz gonna be an educational trip where we visit the unis n all.

i was totally wrong!

mandi air panas, danau toba n bla bla bla

omigod, i seriously cant wait for this trip wif my frens!

1st time im goin out of spore without my family!

ok, change dat.

it'll be the 1st time im boarding a plane without my family!

n im paying all of it wif my goddamn money!

the feeling is just undescribable!

im so excited!

9 more days people!

=))

2009-05-02T20:09:00.002+08:00

having sore throat at dis very moment,

due to that karaoke session we had on thursday.

oh.my.god.

n i was clearing up the mess on my study table just now,

and discovered some old pics.

make me smile.

2 more weeks to Medan,

10 more days to payday.

hehh.

2009-04-27T19:50:00.002+08:00

4 years.

ive had dis blog for 4 bloody years.

let's see, where was i 4 years back..

poly i guess. yeah.

itz been dat long.

looking back at my posts, i cant help but to laugh at some of them.

so silly and naive of me back then.

hehh.

n ive never tried to portray my english to be super good,

(cos i noe there are ppl with way higher standard of english den me, )

or blogged using cheem vocabs,

but it seems that copycats are everywhere. hehh.

to imitate the way someone blogs, boy, you should really start to get a life.

2009-04-25T21:17:00.002+08:00

oh, and by the way, im posted to fuchun primary!!!

hahaha, if u read my previous posts, i was hoping to be posted there,

and i got it! hehh.

tuhan maseh sayang kott...err..

and i feel like getting the blackberry storm or blackberry curve.

hehh.

but i heard need to sign up for the blackberry plan on top of ur normal mobile plan.

wahhh... $$$ lagi. haiz.

prolly hv to wait for june's bonus,

my mobile plan is still not up for renewal aniwae,

n i will still need to pay more to get a new hp,

so y not invest rite?

hmmm..we'll see, we'll see.

2009-04-25T19:52:00.002+08:00

im sick and tired of hearing the same thing every now and then.

and all they do is mock and mock.

im fucked up.

i give up.

sumtimes i just feel like running away,

but where to?

then i'll cool myself down and when i start to think rationally,

i realised that there might be some truth in those harsh words,

and then i succumbed back to my fate.

the question is, when will all this ever stop?

2009-04-24T21:06:00.002+08:00

once again, me being the kental and overcomed with emotions,
i ALMOST teared watching this video.
the word here is ALMOST. hehh.
true friendship do last after all.
bahhhhh~

2009-04-21T20:26:00.003+08:00

finally, exams are over!!!!

woooooooooooooooo!!!!

im so so relieved!

now the thing is i just dunno wat to do from now til the day i leave for medan.

hah! karaoke? cycling?

hmmm.

n the other thing im worried about is the result of which school we'll be posted to for the Teaching Assistantship.

hur.

i hope i got like...fuchun primary? hehh. walking distance.

i hope MOE wont campak me to like..yishun or whichever north-zone schools.

hehh.

hmmm...wat else wat else....

oh aniwae,

watching the programme the biggest loser which airs on hallmark motivates me so much to lose weight.

HAHA!

ok bye.

2009-04-19T22:04:00.002+08:00

have i mentioned dat i lost my very very pretty pink handphone?

yeah...i did. =(

lost my house keys too.

wont want to go back to dat day, but let's just say dat my life had been so unlucky the past few days.

hehh.

lost stuffs, got minor food poisoning, yadayadyayda.

oh well,

a month left to Medan.

cant wait!

i need more moolahs cos seriously, i got lots of stuffs to buy.

am still trying to psycho either mummy or daddy to get me a new phone.

will definitely update once i got a new one.

hee.

bye!

2009-04-11T20:24:00.002+08:00

ah, finally an update.

been very very busy these few days.

wif very very unimportant stuffs.

sigh.

read through my notes and i chuck it aside after less than...10 min?

very bad sign.

i hope i'll scrape my way through for exams.

haiz.

i keep having miscommunications wif my mum the past few days.

but everything turns out well when itz my pay day.

jahat kan orang tua tu?

but im really thankful to my parents for helping me out financially this month.

it might not be much, but at least it took off some weights on my shoulder.

at the end of the day,

no matter what happens,

you will still turn to your parents for help

and they will ever be so willingly to help you out.

ive finally seen dat now.

2009-03-28T18:27:00.002+08:00

ive been trying to put on a brave front.

but deep down inside, all i wanna do is just cry.

i still do.

when i look at my hands and legs, i couldnt stop crying.

they say, time will heal everything.

time will heal everything..

2009-03-25T22:09:00.003+08:00

i was so looking forward to the big fat package supposedly deposited in my account by the end of the month.

got to noe just now dat it wont happen.

ceh!

cheat my feelings!

our feelings!

got us trainees so excited for nothing!

niwae i just made myself a huge cup of coffee,

cos i want to stay up n study for a test tmr which starts at frikking 0830 hours!

but noeing myself,

even if i were to drink 10 gallons of coffee,

when the eyes feels like shutting, it'll just shut.

so how?

2009-03-24T21:41:00.002+08:00

i seriously dunno wat to feel animore.

im having mixed emotions.

hatred, anger, resentment.

everything.

i need to get out of dis shithole, pronto!

2009-03-17T10:12:00.002+08:00

when you think highly of yourself,

is dat a good thing, or a bad one?

it applies to all context.

over-confidence.

positive?

negative?

it got me wondering.

the more i tink about it,

the more disgusted i feel.

urgh.

2009-03-09T21:14:00.002+08:00

somehow i feel itz deja vu,

after 6 bloody years.

hah, those were the times,

n im feeling it again rite now.

can i just quit?

2009-03-08T13:52:00.000+08:00

- Game Over -

Good Riddance..

2009-03-07T13:07:00.001+08:00

am smart by nature, and lazy by choice.

live with dat.

hur.

2009-03-06T21:20:00.005+08:00

At the end of the day,

and after much thought,
i only got this to show you, fucking whore

hehh.

2009-03-05T21:58:00.002+08:00

i received dis email from my fren.

i tot it was nothing, until i watched the clip.

omigod, i actually teared larh ok.

must be the emotional hormones getting to me.

dis was the email,

This is the True Story

A son says to his father: 'Dad, would you be willingly to run a marathon with me?'

The father, despite his age and a heart disease, says 'YES'.

And they run that marathon, together.

The son asks: 'Dad, can you run another marathon with me?' Again father says 'YES'..

They run another marathon, together.

One day the son asks his father: ?Dad would please do the Iron Man with me?'

Now just in case you wouldn't know, 'The Iron Man' is the toughest triathlon in existence; 4km swimming, then 180 km by bike, and finally another 42 km running, in one stroke.

Again father says 'YES'

Maybe this doesn't 'touch' you yet by heart ... until you see this clip(watch full):

and dis was the clip,

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VJMbk9dtpdY

watch it, n please tell me dat itz normal to cry upon watching dat.

2009-03-04T21:58:00.001+08:00

Nobody said it was easy

Oh it's such a shame for us to part

Nobody said it was easy

No one ever said that it would be this hard

Oh take me back to the start..

2009-03-02T19:15:00.003+08:00

So im on a two-days MC.

i didnt noe my condition was that serious.

seems like itz been so long since i last stepped into the campus.

got loads of medicine, i already feel sick just by looking at them.

sigh.

itz the raining season eh?

syok seh.

haiz..

2009-02-28T23:32:00.001+08:00

pls remind me to tell myself,

sumthin like THAT shall never happen again.

never.

period.

2009-02-24T20:20:00.001+08:00

i need to make a trip down there, pronto!

i can't take the pain animore larh kan.

i just hope dat it won't be so bad.

sigh...

2009-02-16T21:30:00.002+08:00

it used to be only with words..

now, itz using hands, legs, wateva,

u name it, i've felt it.

how now?

2009-02-11T21:27:00.002+08:00

im tired, very tired.

i dun wanna go anywhere, or meet anione.

i just wanna rot inside my room.

if can, i'd just wish God will take my life rite now so that i dun hv to face any of these shit im facing.

or maybe not.

ok, i take back my words.

i dun wanna die just yet.

at least let my mum talk to me 1st before i die.

itz been almost a week since i last talked to her.

i missed her.

2009-02-03T21:46:00.002+08:00

so itz confirmed.

from the 18th to 22nd May, i'm off to Medan wif the NIE bunch.

AND, our lecturers of course.

hehh.

can't wait!

n obviously, the girls are extra excited cos our previous hot and handsome lecturer who's no longer teaching at NIE will be joining us too!

heehehehe.

see you soon medan!

and you better be a cosy place cos my pockets are burnt just so dat i can see you!

2009-01-27T18:04:00.000+08:00

if only you knew baby..

if only you knew..

2009-01-23T13:13:00.002+08:00

Are you a man who loves and cherishes and cares for me?
Is that true? Is that true? Is that true?(boy)
Are you a guard in a prison, maximum security?
Is that true? Is that true? Is that true?(boy)
Do we stay home all the time cuz you want me to yourself?
Is that true? Is that true? Is that true?(boy)
Or am I locked away, out of fear that I'd find someone else? Is that true? Is that true? Is that true?(boy)

Well, I don't like,(hoho ohh) living under your spotlight,
Just because you think I might(hoho), find somebody worthy.
Well, I don't like,(hoho) living under your spotlight,
Maybe if you treat me right, you won't have to worry.

Is this a relationship, fulfilling your needs as well as mine?
Is that true? Is that true? Is that true?(boy)
Or is it just my sentence, am I doing time?
Is that true? Is that true? Is that true?(boy)
If this is love, real, real love, then I'm staying no doubt.
Is that true? Is that true? Is that true? (boy)
But if I'm just love's prisoner, then I'm busting out.
Is that true? Is that true? Is that true?(boy)

Oh, you oughta be, ashamed of yourself
What the hell do you think you're doing?
Loving me, loving me, so wrong.
Baby, all I do is try,(try)
To show you that you're my,(my) one and only guy,
No matter who may come along,
Open your eyes cuz baby I don't lie.

2009-01-06T22:12:00.002+08:00

he's scaring me by being all so sweet and complied to ALL my unreasonable requests.
he is sooo patient like that.
2009 resolution maybe?
errr..

2009-01-04T22:13:00.002+08:00

let me just rant a few lines tonite before i start school tmr.
since itz a brand new 2009 rite now,
let's go back n talk about year 2008 on the whole.
one thing i can describe bout 2008 is dat itz full of ups n downs.
first quarter of the year, i was still working for THAT useless company.
im really thankful dat i got dat wonderful email from MOE,
leading me to where i am rite now.
alhamdulillah.
i wont say that i lost a few frens,
a better phrase would be "not so close anymore".
i did my mistake, n i guess dis is how i was "punished".
but as they all say, life goes on n i wish nothing but the best for them.
i tink the turning point in my life would be the day i got into NIE.
i tink that's the best thing dat has ever happen to me.
not only do i make my parents proud of me,
i got a job dat im really passionate about at a young age of 20.
syukur once again.
relationship wif family couldnt get any better.
relationship with the boyfren,
roller-coaster ride, but we're getting there.
n yah, overall, all i can say is dat, im happy with my life rite now.
i really am.
n i felt so good that i spend my bonus on the ones i love, n also on myself.
now i just hope for a blessed 2009 and the many years to come.
gdnite.
=)

2009-01-02T17:44:00.002+08:00

Hi?
hehe. i'm back.
i reached just the day before new years eve.
slept the whole day.
very tired, i am.
didnt really shopped much,
cos the weather was really bad,
and there arent that many shops to shop.
hur.
but i bought candies?
ok, den spend new years eve wif shahrul,
helping to sort out his football & cisco schedules.
n when itz finalised, we looked at it and realised that he got almost no time for me at all!
depressing!
and it all will take effect come february 2009.
=(
ok, enough of dat,
my new timetable is out.
n i tink it sucks.
though i got no lesson every friday,
i got a 4 hours break every tuesday!
4 hours just to go for an hour lesson.
pathetic.
all of us are just hoping dat the lecturer will be free earlier, so we can hv the lesson then.
n i seriously thought we got it over n done wif the service learning thingy.
but no!
we still hv dat module, n itz from 5.30 - 7.30pm every wednesday!
eeeeeee. benci!
ok, enough whining.
bye.

2008-12-09T11:40:00.002+08:00

i hope my flu will be gone by dis friday.
i want to go for the picnic with the NIE bunch!
=(
i sound like a bapok now.
urgh, hate it.
school holiday is coming to an end soon.
hahaha! mcm cepat pulak.
i cant wait for end of the month!
wait for me, seattle!
=)

2008-11-27T13:46:00.002+08:00

We had our service learning thingy with the kids from SK BASIC.
We played captain's ball before heading off to the inline skating centre.
ahhh, sumthing fun to do while ure on vacation.
=)

2008-11-20T14:34:00.003+08:00

now dat im on vacation til the 5th of january nxt yr,
i would like to say only 1 thing,
i want to go back to school now can?
or mayb fast forward to the slumber party mid nxt mth?
or mayb my trip late nxt mth?
itz so boring.
B.O.R.I.N.G!
=(

2008-11-06T16:07:00.000+08:00

im very tired.
very very tired.
haiz.
=(

2008-11-02T20:57:00.002+08:00

mum always told me never to expect any returns if u helped others.
but some ppl, just cannot dikasi muka, you know?
kacang lupakan kulit.
dats all i can say.
renungkanlah..

2008-10-31T14:39:00.002+08:00

is it me? or is it them?
dat got me tinking.

2008-10-28T19:43:00.003+08:00

itz been such a long time.
ive been so busy.
wif school, wif everything!
i cant wait for 12 November!
so so broke.
ok, mayb 12 November is too long.
i cant wait for dis week.
i smell someone's pay coming in. hmmm..
i cant wait to finish off my exams.
i cant wait for december's bonus.
i cant wait for december's holidays wif NIE gurls n my family.
i cant wait to enrol for class 3! (soon! very soon!)
but most importantly, i cant wait for school to be over dis semester.
14 November, hurry up!!!

2008-10-14T20:49:00.004+08:00

Pictures Galore!!
9th October 2008

For more, please sign up for a facebook account and add me as your friend!
hahahaha!
facebook ok, friendster da tak main!
hehh. =P

2008-10-13T22:30:00.002+08:00

Jalan Raya wif NIE mates.

9 October 2008( wif GESL members)

3 cars, 9 people.
started at ard 6 pm.
finished at ard 3am.
all house covered.
penat tak terhingga.

10 October 2008(wif Dip Ed Malay cohort)

penat blom hilang, ade hati nak jalan lagi.
ard 8 cars now, 20++ people.
started at ard 2pm, after friday prayers.
didnt manage to go to everyone's house obviously.
managed to cover ard 7 houses,
mostly in the west n north area.
penat giler jack, tapi fun dier best best best!!
convoy

i need to get pictures from them.
kiter tk bawak camera,
tapi muka kiter larh yg paling byk dlm camera org.
hahaha!
ok bye.

2008-10-08T20:34:00.001+08:00

do you know that i'm super stressed with school?
assignments are like ALOT, and all of them are due on the same day?
n my exams?
so little time!
i swear ive never felt like dis before!
=(

2008-10-04T20:33:00.000+08:00

hehehehe!
mine is in pink.
hehehe!
tankiu boyfren.
=)

2008-10-02T23:34:00.003+08:00

i hope im not turning into like a pink freak or sumthin.
cos my walls are now pink,
bedsheets pink,
1st day raya, baju pink
tirai bilik, pink
langsir bilik, ade pink2 sikit2
kecoh beb.
but still ok arh,
at least i dun hv like pink baju
n pink kasut,
n pink beg duit or anything.
hehh.
=P

i hope itz still not too late to wish all muslims
EID MUBARAK!
=)

2008-09-26T21:42:00.001+08:00

i received a pleasant surprise in my mailbox just now.
from MOE.
hah, really shocked but alhamdulillah.
hehh.
=)

2008-09-22T12:34:00.002+08:00

i miss her.
i wonder how she's doing rite now.
ive not been meeting her for quite some time.
bitch, i hope ure ok.
=(

2008-09-19T23:43:00.002+08:00

aku macam tgh lost skarang.
like really..
mcm..org merepek takde arah tujuan, tak tau nk buat ape gitu.
ikotkan hati nk maki-maki je kan.
tapi kecoh arh.
alah, wateva arh.
i dunno why but i really feel like haivng slurpee rite now.
slurpee??
haiz.

2008-09-17T19:51:00.003+08:00

hahaha!
aku tau lagu carik pasal.
but yah, we were listening dis during malay literature,
n somehow, i find it so nice.
imagine org dulu2 pandai tulis lirik ni mcm.
so bunga2.
ok, shall not go there.
hehh.
oh im so tired.
mentally n physically tired.
yes i am.
=(

2008-09-13T18:46:00.001+08:00

benci benci benci benci!!!
=(

2008-09-12T10:51:00.002+08:00

ok, these are part of my friends from NIE, diff courses,
except those two at the front, from right.
yeah, we're doing some voluntary service learning thing wateva crap for these service centre.
yeah, alia and voluntary just doesnt go along. hehh.
but oh well, for the module's sake.
at least we'll be doing sumthin fun and less ambitious.
in-line skating and tchoukball.
yes!
n i heard ~~nurul~~ 'sumone' wanted lime green jerseys for the whole group?
errrr.... hehh.

2008-08-27T20:49:00.000+08:00

2008-08-26T17:23:00.002+08:00

NIE has been so much fun.
though i feel kinda left out at times,
cos im the only one in class who did not do contract teaching prior to dis.
for wateva reasons, so yah.
but hey, tink positive.
mummy said, itz a gd thing.
i tink she meant dat im not wasting my time, rite?
hehh. =)
i've been in school for 3 weeks now,
and i couldnt ask for anything better.
ok, maybe a better lecturer for my "Linguistik & Tatabahasa" module.
dats all.
hey, im not the only one complaining ok. =p
now i noe y the teachers said "enjoy ur NIE! itz really fun!".
even Obek Ler said dat.
now i understand how they felt.
n itz only my 3rd week.
wooo~~
n ive got great bunch of company in school.
n the malay team are such a great ppl, we bonded right away.
both boys n gurls. =)
n not forgetting the bitch who's always there for me,
even though sumone might claim to noe her better den me,
but deep down, aku sorang je kan heart and soul kau.
errr..hehh.
assignments are due pretty soon.
but no worries, i noe i'll finish it all up on time.
poly days WON'T repeat itself.
hehh.
ok, i need to type dis.
2 more weeks to my bdae can??
i wanted so badly to prepare a wishlist, but i doubt anyone will read dis.
or prolly read it just in time before my bdae comes.
hah.
oh well, i just need a pretty pretty notebook, mayb from Borders.
and an organizer too!
2008/2009.
yeah, dat shall suffice.
i dun need other stuffs.
really. =)
senang kan?
err...

2008-08-21T20:09:00.001+08:00

family portrait.

mummy n daddy spent ALOT for these photos to be taken professionally.
so it better turn out nice once it hangs on my wall.
hurhurhur.

2008-08-10T22:15:00.002+08:00

on the 12th of august,
aku akan jadi kaya!
terpranjat berok tadi gua check gaji.
tak pernah mane2 company bank in duit gitu mcm nyer banyak dlm account aku.
hahaha.
keje goverment jugak baik arh!
syukur alhamdulillah!
=)

2008-08-09T22:24:00.000+08:00

exactly 1 more month.
just 1 more month.
im so sex-cited.
hehh.
=)

2008-08-01T20:11:00.001+08:00

my timetable is cool or wat!
i got no school every tuesday.
i only got 1 hour of lesson every friday.
hah!
the longest day wii be every thurs, 9.30-5.30 pm.
dats all.
haha.
i love school la
hehh. =P

2008-07-27T19:49:00.002+08:00

i'll only need to go to school on monday n friday next week.
hurhur.
but most prolly i need to come back on the other days,
u noe, to complete the projects n stuffs.
yesssssss, we are assigned to projects oredi.
n the school term hasnt even officially started.
but itz ok.
at least itz a fun thing to do.
project runway.
go figure.
=)

2008-07-23T20:43:00.002+08:00

im back to school!
finally!
hah.
n first day was...
fun! =)
made new frens.
ok, mayb just 1.
itz only the 1st day, ok?
n im sure tmr will be tiring n exciting at the same time.
team-bonding activities.
hurhur.
n my malay coordinator is so cuteeeeeeeeeee.
n he'll be teaching us classical malay literature.
lagi cuteeeee.
haha. ok stop.
im having so much fun rite now,
wait til the assignments n all come,
den u'll see me get stressed up.
hehh.
ok bye.

2008-06-29T12:06:00.002+08:00

there's no more reason for me to update religiously animore.
ive lost all drive to do dat.
prolly i'll update again once ive start NIE.

n if only i could just hug him when we bumped into each other at T3 yesterdae.
he went up to salam my parents n brothers instead.
haiz.
how much longer?
=(

2008-06-27T20:53:00.002+08:00

my dad couldnt work without a car.
so, he ended up renting one while waiting for our car to be ready,
tentatively by mid of july.
so now we have mitsubishi lancer to bring us around.
ah, bliss.

i dunno how to describe wat im feeling right now.
my heart is crying.
im hurt, very hurt.
=...(

2008-06-26T14:28:00.002+08:00

funny how i wont even tink of food when im stuck in a situation like dis.
all i wanna do is just sleep and forget dat it ever happened.
now dat im always at home makes thing slightly difficult.
i'll keep thinking bout it.
so i'd rather sleep.
=(
kalau asek tak makan, ade chan bleh kurus tak?
errr...

2008-06-23T21:15:00.000+08:00

i am so so so so so brokeeee!
urgh!

2008-06-22T14:52:00.001+08:00

haha!
jangan macam paham.
peace.
=)

aniwae, caught the movie "you don't mess wif the zohan".
it was funny larh. really. worth the money.
sharul was practically laughing at every part.
oh well, the slightest thing tickles him.
but really, itz funny. hah.
of course there's some lame parts here n there,
but overall, itz worth the 10 bucks.
so yah, go watch!
=)

2008-06-21T23:18:00.003+08:00

mula-mula prangai, nak jumpe skejap je.
jumpe dekat2 je.
cukop time, tanak aku balek.
hah! ego!
so yah, itz back to normal again, for now.
tunggu je larh masa-masa yg akan datang.
hehh.
wateva la.
im so used to all this oredi.
b.o.s.a.n

2008-06-21T00:16:00.001+08:00

mahu tapi malu.
haiz.

2008-06-17T21:39:00.002+08:00

i.am.so.bored.
haiz.
=(

2008-06-16T20:00:00.002+08:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA
HAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAAHHA
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAAHHAHAAHHAHA
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHH!!!!
ok da.
=)

2008-06-15T11:58:00.005+08:00

hello!!!
hehh.
i just woke up?
oh ok, nvm. itz a sunday.
mayb tomorrow i can action and wake up at this time bcos other people will be working.
^^
hehh. okok, kidding.
niwae, the other day (friday) i had so much fun riding at my bitch's new baby fino.
hahaha.
so gerek.
i've never pillioned a female rider before.
virgin attempt.
wif all those stupig drivers dat keeps on sounding the horn,
to the action babi JB maplek rider wif an orbit-nak-mampos maplek minah.
hahaha.
gerek kape?
tanx eh bitch for willing to bawak dis anak gajah rounding2.
haha.
can't wait for the next ride.
^^

boyfren's mum called last nite, inviting me to have dinner wif them tonite,
though she didnt tell me the real reason why.
n of cos, i got to reject politely cos i need to spend time wif my family too, rite?
n den she realised n went, "a'arh eh! besok kan father's day. astarghfirullahalazim. cik luper.."
hehh? ok, mak dier kecoh.
n i dun get to meet boyfren today on his off day.
sob..sob..
itz ok, next week he'll be on course the whole week.
so he can go back early n i can meet him everyday!
=\

and all of u know the car is in the workshop now,
and yst i got to make a trip down to MOE building to sign some thingy which u wont understand,
except for Wani (*waves*), hehehe.
so we took the train, n i swear, my dad is like a tourist each time he takes the train.
haha.
there we are, smacked at the middle cabin, which is rare for me n my younger brother.
and apparently, the train was packed at only 9+ am in the morning, so we got to stand.
so me and alfian were trying to act cool by not holding the poles n all,
n my dad was kancheong telling us dat we might fall and ROLL.
which is so drama n so bedek of course.
but my dad is so cute.
we even went to bugis after dat.
amazing how he still wants to walk all over spore without his car,
but spent only a short while, cos my mum is already complaining about the hot sunny weather.
had lunch, shopped abit n went home, by cab.
hah.

n oh, even without a car,
even if we can't go to Geylang during breakfast for daddy's favourite nasi rawon,
even if we can't go to Bedok for daddy's favourite BBQ stingray,
even if we cant go to ECP for daddy's favourite cappucino,
even if we cant go to Tampines for daddy's favourite nasi goreng kerang,
even if we cant go to Changi Beach to count the no. of planes dat took of n landed,
we'll still celebrate Father's Day today ok daddy?
mummy's treat.
cos all of ur children are broke beroks rite now.
Happy Father's Day!
n i love my dad, very much.
=)

2008-06-13T21:14:00.003+08:00

my dad met wif an accident, again.
i dun really noe the full story yet, cos when i came home just now, mummy n daddy were getting ready to go out for dinner, by bus.
so yah, i have to go to MOE building wif them tomorrow, by train.
alahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
n mummy already said only she n daddy are goin KL for the cousin's wedding.
they've already booked the bus.
im bored.
just when i tot i can finally get out of spore, the car have to get into an accident at dis point of time.
sigh.
bitch, pegi JB pon jadi arh.
set?
^^

2008-06-13T11:26:00.003+08:00

last day! finally!

haha.

i cant wait for 5 pm n den i'll run to the gate and shout "Fuck ***"

ok prolly not.

but i just cant wait.

n i cant wait to meet the bitch later.

oh goodie-goodie.

leaving behind so many things/people which/whom are pests and are so not needed in my life.

am looking forward to the future, study, make more reliable frens hopefully (not forgetting the old ones of course. but if the old ones prefer to forget me, den i dun give a damn too cos like wateva, rite? dats their problem if they chose not to befriend me animore. for all i noe, i did no wrong. i noe i didnt. hehh. ) ,

n insyaallah, be a good teacher.

amin.

2008-06-12T11:51:00.004+08:00

no matter what people say, it wont bring me down.

this is the path ive chosen, n i noe i will prove all who think otherwise wrong.

i will.
even if it wont last,
at least i know i've already given my very best.

prolly you can start off by being humble? no?

besides, you are a nobody to start with also.

2008-06-11T15:42:00.002+08:00

i switched back to my W810i.

cos i really dun need a 3G phone since i hardly make any video calls.

besides, W810i's camera is so much better den the previous phone.

so yah.

n boyfren has to sebok n get the same phone lor.

in white sumore. ceh.

n sumone's baby fino is coming out anitime soon,

most probably today.

sumone is so excited.

n im excited too. hahah.

for wateva reason.

dis friday amek balek keje, jgn tak jadi eh.

hurhur.

2 more days til last day of work.

ah, bliss finally.

2008-06-09T20:59:00.003+08:00

kalau la hari-hari muhd shahrul off..
kalau la hari-hari mcm gini..
jumpe matair, lepak, makan mcm babi..
den jalan-jalan, kutok2 orang,
lepak lagi..den balek..
best kan?
^^

besok enjoy lagi. hehh.
^^

2008-06-07T13:10:00.002+08:00

sumtimes when he gets fucked up and goes back to his old mean ways,
i just need to knock some sense into him.
n you guessed it rite, i always win.
hehh.
i can say im better at handling him now.
thank god.
we can do it, yes we can.
=)

2008-06-06T21:37:00.002+08:00

sape yg jadi anak-nya ni sekarang?
hahaha.
heran aku.
mcm nak pegi wild wild wet arh.
kalau tak kesampaian, swimming pool pon jadi arh.
kalau tak dapat jugak, bathtub kat rumah jugak larh jawabnye eh.
siap dgn rubberduck.
oops.
^^
dan oleh kerana sebab-sebab yang tertentu, aku telah bertekad untuk mengambil cuti sakit pada hari isnin.
kalau dapat doktor gerek, hari selasa skali.
sorry arh new town primary.
gua da holiday mood arh.
takde feeling nak jejak kaki kat skolah.
ampun beribu-ribu ampun.
ok bye.

2008-06-05T09:16:00.002+08:00

oh well,

takde angin takde ribut, beh nak action.

tak paham aku.

jangan nanti nak mintak tolong baru carik aku.

i made the biggest mistake by drinking chocolate HL milk in the morning.

n now i cant stop going to the toilet.

damn sak!

n i shall say this again, i cant bloody wait to leave the company.

i shall have ample rest n den NIE, here i come!

yes!

2008-06-04T15:18:00.000+08:00

boyfren.

just like old times.

greatly missed.

2008-06-03T09:21:00.004+08:00

"Hati membeku mengingatkan
Kata janji manismu... oh...
Ku dilambung angan-angan
Belaian kasih sayang suci darimu
Oh kejamnya

Lidah tidak bertulang
Ucapan cinta mengiris kalbu
Ku kan pergi membawa diri
Cinta di hati terkubur lagi"

2008-06-02T20:28:00.002+08:00

when i was with you, it was a torture.
now that i want to leave you, itz still a torture.
sigh.
.
.
.
.
.
.

Dear A**, how i loathe u so!

2008-06-01T12:59:00.002+08:00

how it really breaks my heart when he told me he got to attend a 3-day course starting tmr and dat his off day will be "burnt".
yes, im sad, cos we wont be meeting.
well, not really actually.
cos now i got the part-time lover.
errrr.
ok, i sound like a bitch now. stop.

2008-06-01T12:06:00.003+08:00

was woken up at 8.45 am,
wanting to meet n have breakfast.
klaka kape?
obviously, i choose my sleep lurhhh seyyyz.
=\

2008-05-30T07:47:00.003+08:00

i always blog like in the morning,
mainly bcos i got nuthing to do now dat itz the sch holiday n stuffs,
n prolly bcos im just too lazy to face the computer once im at home cos ive been doing dat for like 9 hours during the early hours of the day.
yes.
so basically, how hv i been doing?
i wont say good, but im coping well.
like how they always say, go with the flow.
yes, im doin just dat.
just in case some ppl gonna say aku "control" dier lagi kan kan kan?
yah.
n there's the part-time lover who's forever so ~~bloodyfucking~~ sweet.

haha. haiz.

n today i need to make a trip back to the hell in the cell.

settle all the frikking stuffs once n for all.

n i wont step back there animore, for good.

urgh.

oh, n aku confirm plus chop goin to KL for my cousin's wedding dis june. errr.

nxt mth i mean.

yah, i'll leave prolly on the 19th (yatee's bdae. hehe. i remember okay!).

n obviously we'll drive up there,

only stupid ppl with loads of money n dunno wat to do wif it took the plane.

(read: the paternal sides. =\)

n we should be staying in a hotel i tink.

cos no matter how big my aunt's house is, i dun tink it can accomodate the whole of my dad's side.

n i need sumone to sleep wif me at nite. errr..

so sesiape nk ikot, blang okay?

n girls only, for now.

cos mummy n daddy will be there too. errr.. =\

oh can i go on? ok can.

ermm..wat else.

oh! ive been watching gossip girl online.

im only at episode 5 rite now.

yah aku lembab.

but trust me, itz so addictive! really.

ok da.

xoxo,

alia.

2008-05-28T13:20:00.000+08:00

absence makes the heart grows fonder...

....too long makes the heart forgets.

tanx eh beach.

hehh.

2008-05-26T08:09:00.001+08:00

im very very sad.

n itz raining now.

itz a sign.

the weather is crying wif me. no?

ok, so drama.

but im sad. really.

fact is i just cant let it go. not now.

but i dun even noe why.

fuck, i hate boys wif ego as huge as my ___!

babi.

2008-05-24T21:09:00.001+08:00

decision decision.
im so bad at this.
HAIZ!
kpalaku pusing!! pusing!!!

2008-05-24T11:50:00.003+08:00

the post b4 dis was supposed to be my last update.
but i cant help it.
i need to knock some sense into some ppl.

in case u didnt noe,
im having my period.
im having PMS.
n only people who noes me well,
noes how bitchy, grouchy, cranky i get when im having my PMS.
and it doesnt help when life and relationship are taking a toll on me.
they are goin against me, and i dun need "friends" to add to my burden.
im not putting all the blame on my period for the bitchy behaviour ive been acting, but yah.
i dun need u to comment me or wateva at this point of time, really.
i swear dat's the last thing i will ever want to hear at dis point of time now.
n i swear, i didnt mean to be harsh, but sumtimes, u just need to learn to shut up.
there's so many things going on in my mind rite now,
which i noe doesnt concern you n you n you.
but wateva, just leave me alone for now.
i only need ppl who truly cares at dis point of time.
n i just need ppl to understand.
but if u still dun, den tu korang peh pasal larh kan.

n today everything shall be brought out to light,
n hopefully, everything ends today. i hope.
n no more turning back.
yes.

2008-05-23T19:42:00.001+08:00

i tink itz about time i close this blog down for good.
yah, im just gonna keep everything to myself from now onwards.
everything.
prolly itz better dat way.
so for now, enjoy my last update.

2008-05-22T09:08:00.003+08:00

tgh datang bulan ni, aku malas nk layan orang-orang yg chat dgn aku kat MSN n starts to comment like a fucking childish imbecile.

aku malas.

and dun blame me for saying those harsh words larh eh.

you fondled the wrong trigger.

oh well, ntah dier baca blog aku ke tak.

2008-05-22T08:32:00.002+08:00

Perkataan lazim yang kaum hawa sering gunakan.

FINE

Ini la yg perempuan suka gunakan utk hentikan pergaduhan, lebih-lebih lagi bila dia rasa dia yg betul & anda kena diam. Jgn sekali kali gunakan perkataan ini utk memberi gambaran rupanya, terutama sekali apabila dia sedang mencuba pakaian di kedai - hanya akan membawa anda berdua bergaduh.

LIMA MINIT

Ini sebenarnya setengah jam. Ianya sama jugak dgn lima minit yg perlawanan bola sepak akan berakhir sebelum anda membawa sampah ke luar, jadi ini adalah pertukaran yg seimbang.

TAKDE APA-APA

Ini bermakna "something" & anda perlu berjaga-jaga! Perkataan ini melambangkan perasaan perempuan yg inginkan anda berputar-putar kat dlm mcm mesin basuh. Selalunya, ini akan memulakan pergaduhan yg akan bertahan selama 'LIMA MINIT' & diakhiri dgn 'FINE'.

PERGILAH

Ini adalah satu cabaran yg akan membuat si perempuan menjadi marah dgn 'TAKDE APA-APA' & diakhiri dgn 'FINE'. PERGILAH Ini bermakna 'mengalah' atau 'buat je la apa yg awak nak sebab saya tak kisah'. Anda hanya akan mendpt situasi ini & dlm beberapa minit diikuti dgn 'TAKDE APA-APA', 'FINE' & dia akan berckp kembali dgn anda dlm masa 'LIMA MINIT' apabila dia dah sejuk.

MENGELUH YG KUAT

Ini sebenarnya bukanlah perkataan, tetapi kenyataan yg sering disalah anggap oleh kaum lelaki. 'MENGELUH YG KUAT' bermakna dia merasakan anda adalah seorg yg bodoh ketika itu & dia sendiri terfikir kenapalah dia menghabiskan masa berdiri di situ & bergaduh mengenai 'TAKDE APA-APA'.

MENGELUH YG PERLAHAN

Lagi sekali, ini bukanlah perkataan. 'MENGELUH YG PERLAHAN' membawa maksud yg dia berasa puas. Adalah lebih elok jika anda duduk diam, jgn buat sebarang tindakan....dia akan kekal puas.

OKAY LAH

Ini adalah kenyataan yg paling merbahaya seorg perempuan boleh buat kpd lelaki. 'OKAY LAH' bermakna dia ingin berfikir panjang sebelum dia membalas terhdp perbuatan anda yg telah menyakitkan hatinya. 'OKAY LAH' selalunya digunakan dgn 'FINE'.

BUAT LAH

Satu ketika di masa depan dalam masa terdekat, anda akan dilanda masalah yang besar.

TOLONGLAH

Ini bukan kenyataan, sebaliknya adalah pelawaan. Seorang perempuan memberi anda peluang untuk mengeluarkan sebarang alasan atau sebab di atas apa yang telah anda lakukan. Anda mempunyai peluang yang adil dengan kejujuran, jadi berhati-hati dan anda tidak akan mendapat 'OKAY LAH'.

TERIMA KASIH

Seorg perempuan mengucapkan terima kasih. Jgn pengsan. Terima & ucapkan sama-sama.

TERIMA KASIH BYK-BYK

Ini byk berbeza dari 'TERIMA KASIH'. Seorg perempuan akan menggunakan ini apabila dia dah terlampau marah pada anda. Ini menunjukkan yg anda telah menyinggung perasaannya & akan diikuti dgn 'MENGELUH YG KUAT'. Berhati-hati utk tidak bertanya apa yg salah selepas 'MENGELUH YG KUAT' kerana ini hanya akan membuat dia berkata 'TAKDE APA-APA'.

ok, got dis from sumone's blog.

funny thing is, itz my boyfren, who's definitely NOT a perempuan, loves to say all dat.

ok, mayb just most of it.

especially the first word, his favourite word.

hahaha. matair aku jiwa perempuan.

tsk tsk tsk.

2008-05-19T21:05:00.002+08:00

i cant believe i have to drag my ass to work tomorrow.
yes, i hate work now.
i cant wait for the day.
n hopefully the malay girls' gathering jadi arh eh.
itz been so long since i meet all those corky faces.
hehh.
ok bye.

2008-05-16T21:38:00.000+08:00

different people react differently.
there is no "right" feeling.
i get it.

2008-05-15T08:26:00.005+08:00

we've finally made an agreement to meet only on his off days.

cos he simply, just simply, can't wake up early to meet me on his working days.

n im trying to be cool n understand dat he's been working for 12 hours the day b4,

so therefore, he can't wake up.

yes.

so people,

please dun start to be sarcastic or menyampah or wateva you tend to feel if you were to ask me out and i said "today is sharul's off day."

cos please understand dat i only get to meet my love once or twice every 4-5 days.

sumtimes we wont meet at all, cos on his off days, he needs to divide his time for his family as well.

so yah, i consider dat pathetic, at first.

(i'm sure those wif boyfrens workin the 12-hour shift, or in camp, or wateva understands.)

but den i realised we were spending quality time within dat 1 or 2 days dat we meet so i dun mind.

n the longer u didnt meet ur other half, it just makes ur heart grows fonder.

hehehehehehehe.

n we're unlike you guys out there who can meet ur loved ones like everyday, every 1-2 days, wateva.

so yah, u get the drift.

i dunno how long i can last, but at least i'm trying.

yes. n please,

dun start saying "kau pentingkan matair dari aku" and wateva along dat line,

just bcos you dun get it.

ok? tanx n bye.

2008-05-14T08:35:00.000+08:00

ni semua ayat-ayat cinta nyer pasal,

thus, the blog song.

haiz.

2008-05-13T20:42:00.003+08:00

orang-orang jepon jahat!
hehehe